As long as I can remember I was always chasing some sort of certainty. I’ve always been pretty incredible at overthinking and overanalysing every single little thing, thinking of the worst-case scenario just so I could be ‘prepared’ for things if they didn’t go ‘right.’ Later, I realised that it’s okay if you don’t have it all figured out. It is okay if you are not sure what your next move will be. It is okay if you are just putting one foot in front of the other and trusting the process. The truth is, most of us don’t have it figured out, some of us are more prepared than others, but so many of us are hoping everything just works out, and that’s okay but It’s a tiring place to be at when you’re constantly trying to figure out the next thing/moment and life is really just asking of you to let go a bit and trust more. I’ve been told my entire life how important it is to have a plan.
Although I agree that having plans is beneficial, sometimes making plans is scary, because plans have a funny way of re-routing and going in a different direction than we anticipated. It is okay if your plan is a work in progress and it is okay if your plan is being pieced together by a tiny string. My “plan” for my life has changed so much over the years, from starting school as a maths and art cynic to turning to a science student and running an art page because it was the easiest thing for me to switch to, to wanting to become a businesswoman to becoming a passionate teacher. My plans for my personal life have changed since I was a little girl – it’s funny to think that at age 10, I was convinced by this age I would become a businesswoman.
Plans change! But the best part about this journey is that you don’t have to have all the answers right now. No one will ever have all of the answers, that’s the beauty of this unexpected journey. We will all just keep trying to figure out life the best we possibly can. So be patient with yourself and despite what people might say to you, it’s okay to be where you are, whether you know every step of where you want to be in 5 to 10 years, or you have absolutely no idea because you can barely think about what you will have for dinner tomorrow. So instead, let’s chunk things down a bit smaller.
Ultimately, have goals for yourself and follow your passions, but it’s okay if the plans for achieving those goals aren’t all laid out and it’s okay if you aren’t exactly sure yet how you will reach that goal. Keep doing one small thing every day that gets you closer to reaching that goal and that pieces your plan together. Even when the plan changes course, find comfort, patience and trust in yourself and know you will end up exactly where you are supposed to be.